Here is a trip down memory lane. Or should I say valley... Would you walk with me? In celebration of this special day..
I can remember it like it was yesterday…
Stephanie and I were waiting patiently, in what was an all too familiar place. My hospital room It felt like forever since I had been home. Even when I had been, my mind was always in a fog and all I did was sleep. But now things were going to be much different. I was heading home with the ultimate do over.. Another chance at life!
As we waited, I gazed at Stephanie., thinking about all that had taken place in the last week…
Just a five days earlier… My body was shutting down, it had seen it’s limit. I was dying.
Chapter 19 - Walking in the valley
“A new sensation now grabbed hold. Panic followed by something odd. It was a cold, hollow, empty feeling. With no frame of reference that was the best way I can explain it. Tied to it was a sense of pain and panic. Was this what death felt like?
I sat up on the edge of the bed and I looked down. Sweat continued streaming down my arms. I felt weak. Maybe I really was dying. I didn’t know. I’d had so many different ailments and feelings by this time. This was very different. This was a scary emptiness.
Something was very wrong.
My kidneys were shutting down and my body was going into defense mode. It had been pushed to the brink.
“Steph-a-nie.” My voice was barely more than a strained whisper.
How she heard me, I will never know…”
“Then, they put me into an ambulance and hauled me up to Toledo Hospital.
Things blurred past. From one hospital to the next. From the dialysis unit to my own room. The next 14 hours I struggled to stay awake and alive. At 4:00 a.m., I was moved from the room I’d been in over to the ICU where I was put on nitroglycerine to control the blood pressure. It had been 22 straight hours of shuffling.”
I surrendered to God, accepting defeat to death. Laying in intensive care, I new my time was finished unless a miracle happened..
"Lord If you take me I’m yours.. And if you leave me here I’m yours Lord. So whether you take me or leave me, I’m yours”
Those were the words I prayed to God as I lay there…
48 hours later.. God gave my life back to me. And I have pledged to make sure it was worth saving!
I remember leaving the hospital that day. It was a hot, dog day of August. The sun was making it’s way down to dusk. I had a feeling of complete peace, freedom, and tranquility. It felt as if I had been cleansed and given a new beginning..
As we pulled out of the parking lot, I reached over and turned on the radio. The Lord had provided the perfect song. A victory song for this very moment..
I just gazed out the window at the sun setting, with a smile on my face that would not leave. Tears began to well up… Till they over flowed. My heart was humbly overflowing with love and appreciation of everyone that had ever prayed and believed, and even those that prayed and doubted. You were not alone, there were many times I did too..
I thought about those that were tested and the ones that couldn’t. Though I don’t know who you all are, your courage, generosity, potential sacrifice and Christ like love was a gift from God. You were my inspiration at dire times of need, just when things seemed hopeless.
There were those that called to see how I was doing, those that would just sit with me and give me there time and friendship, and those that sent cards of encouragement.
To my family, friends, my brother Tony, and a Stranger who is now a friend. My life would not be the same with out you!!!
I praise God for you all!! May you all be blessed abundantly!! Because you have blessed me more than you will ever know…
I am now off this morning to run my first 5K for the Transplant Games of America.
Who would have thought… Two years ago I finished a race for my life, one that I shouldn't have. But God seen me through to the finish line..
Now I will be running another Race to commemorate and celebrate the first...
What a difference a miracle makes!!
Thanks for walking down the lane with me.. Will you say a little prayer for me today? And praise God for your own blessings.
Praise God for Romans 8:28 on this date of 7-28!
Rom 8:18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.
Rom 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Rom 8:31 "What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?"
The walk continues…